I made a promise to myself 30 days ago…
After much contemplation and self-analysis, I made a commitment to withdrawing an aspect from my life each month that is causing undo stress. Today I reflect on the month of September and attempt to give an unbiased opinion of whether my journey to rid my life of “negativity and uncertainty” was successful.
On September 1st, I promised myself that I would awake each morning with a positive comment. The comment may be about my physical appearance, a congratulatory comment about having a productive day the day before, or simply a statement about how lucky I am in my life to be surrounded by such loving people. Regardless of the type of comment, the intent was still the same – become more self-aware and cognitive of the positive people and influences around me.
This past year and a half has been especially crazy in my life. I have moved to a new city (as if moving alone does not warrant enough stress), I committed my time to two professional associations (that of course include committee involvement), I started a new job at a company that I have admired for several years (doing exactly what I LOVE to do), and agreed to obtain a second Master’s degree (after completing my MBA only 2 years ago) – all of this while trying to be the best wife, mother, daughter, sister, and friend I know how to be. Although I took on each of these challenges willingly, sometimes there is not enough time in every day to equally support all of the things that we care about.
In retrospect, even with all of these additional responsibilities, this past month has probably been one of the most tranquil months I have had in a very long time. Giving myself one positive comment each day helped remind me that when we have self-doubt it is important to remember that “every cloud has a silver lining”.
Reflection on the “detoxification of my soul” over this past month has not taught me how to overcome the stress in my life. Instead, letting go of “negativity and uncertainty” forced me to take on a new positive outlook and embrace challenges. It reminded me that in order to define my own success, I must feel at ease with my own sense of self. Marrianne Williamson, a successful, spiritual author and teacher, said it best when she said, “Spiritual progress is like detoxification. Things have to come up in order to be released. Once we have asked to be healed, then our unhealed places are forced to the surface.” This journey is my own way of “asking to be healed” – one month at a time!